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February 10, 2009
Nothing is easy. These days are stuffed full and it seems like there’s no letting up, no overflow valve, just head to the grind. But, at least the breeze was over 60 degrees today and the sky was blue…relief from the deep dark winter we’ve been having.
I was zooming around running errands this afternoon while Miika was swinging at the playground with the neighbors. I came and picked her up because we’d planned to grab supper and go over to the apartment building and work tonight. We were running late and I’m sure I was going a little too fast. Miika who was in the back seat piped up and said, “Mommy, go as close to the edge of the law as you can to go as fast as you can!” I think my jaw dropped. She’s 6 years old. Where does she get this stuff?
So we had a picnic in an empty apartment and worked until 8pm then came home. While the kids were in the tub, I caught up on some e-mail and took in some bad news. What was suppose to be a great big freelance project fell through…plunk. The news hit hard and cast dark shadows on an otherwise beautiful day. But, my hope is not in money, or a company, or a project. It’s in God. He is our provider, not clients. Yup, it’s a drag, but tomorrow is another day. The sun will come up, the phone will ring and we’ll get up and do the next thing.
Everything seems uncertain sometimes. This whole move into a little place seems impossible at times. Are we doing the right thing? Will the kids like it? Will we go crazy? Moving day is Saturday…unless circumstances throw us a curve. We think we’re ready. I vacillate between excitement and panic daily.
And then I think, someday, in heaven we won’t have to toil, worry, wonder, get uptight, or freak out. I’m looking forward to it.